For the third time this year I have started a diet. All you have to do is take a look at me to see that I am as big as a house, fat as a pig, huge as a heifer !!! I weigh more than I have ever weighed in my life.............not going to tell you my exact weight, makes me want to puke, but let's just say I will soon need a butchers scale to weigh myself if I don't slim down !!!
I went on a diet several years ago, lost 40 lbs and kept if off for about a year..............Then, stuff started to happen.............No, that is not true, well it is , but that is not the reason I got fat again. The reason is that I EAT TOO MUCH OF THE WRONG FOOD, NEVER EXERCISE & LIE TO MYSELF ALL THE TIME !!! OH Yeah ! I say to myself things like "El, ya look fine ! " " El, you are a big girl, you can hold a lot of weight !" and my favorite lie to me it this one : " OH El ! Have another brownie ! You can start that diet tomorrow". ............
I got very sick last year and by the grace of God survived my almost fatal brain bleed. Phew ! I am so lucky and I know it ! I quit smoking, no choice really, either smoke and DIE or quit smoking and have a chance to LIVE .............Mom did not raise a fool here, my 40 year puffing fest was over. Do I breath better? Who knows ......My pocket is a little heavier since I am not buying cigs every week. As well as my body ! I have a serious oral fixation, get uncontrollable urges to stick something in my mouth [no wisecracks here!] and since cigarettes are no longer and option, food has become my new "oral-ism" . Sad fact but oh so true !
When it comes to dieting, I know how to do it. I am very good at it in fact. I can follow a very repetitious menu, day after day, without faltering. I can get good results without starving myself ...............For a while............and after a couple of months, when I see myself back to a size I can be happy with, I get lazy and start talking to myself again ............"El, now just one brownie won't hurt..........." ........and that is how it starts !! That is the point I need to get past eventually. I only started to diet on Monday so we will not be seeing results any time soon. I will keep you posted on my efforts.
One thing I should do to boost the results of my effort to lost weight it to get myself off this computer !! I spend waaaaaay too much time jerking around , not only on FB but also with my genealogy research, internet shopping, so many other interesting but not necessary internet related STUFF . Oh yeah, need to get off my ass and get moving and I don't mean to the refrigerator ! I am not one for exercise, thought that when the heat breaks I plan to start with a little program of walking . I have considered the local gum as well, something I have never done before. Wonder if they have a place for someone like me who is lazy and has not done organized exercise since high school [we are talking 40+ years ago here!!].
I plan to write about this weight problem. I am thinking that will help me see it a bit more clearly and deal with it in a more aggressive and proactive manner. Anyone out here want to start a CHUB CLUB with me ?? Not necessarily for YOU [although that may be an option] to lose weight but also to help ME lose weight ! I am looking for ideas, thoughts, suggestions, kudos, critiques and/or HELP in any way you can offer it to me.......I would like to feel better, be able to move around with a bit more OMPH in my step, live a longer and healthier life and most important, be a better example to my grandchildren.
At this moment I SUCK at being a shining example of health and beauty ..............and they love me anyway ! BUT, one day in the not so far future, if I don't make a change now, they might be embarrassed of their BIG FAT GRANDMOTHER and I would hate that !
